Sunday, November 13, 2011
I'm having a hard time with Christmas.....to give you an idea this is what my house looked like last year for Christmas I put the pics on here......so....I"m thinking this year....I need to go simple...and I'm really having a hard time with that. I'm having a hard time with all of it....I just want to walk and run again....I just want this season to be over....I'm running out of patience! I'm tired of talking about it....everyone asks no matter if I know them or if they are complete strangers....I get stared at....and people get mad that I go so slow....so for now...I just like to stay at home....the only time I feel normal is when I can drive my van....nobody knows I'm broken when I ride in my van....nobody stares....I think when I'm all better...and I see someone who appears to be "broken"....I will def make sure that I pay attention to them in a positive way....not act like they are in my way and huff and puff around them....because really....I do know that they just want to appear as "normal"....because that's how I have felt.....
So still working on being patient, letting go of control and just laying it all down....and keeping it there....not doing that so well!