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Saint Joseph, MO, United States
I'm a stay at home Mom of two children and I have the unique privilege of being able to homeschool both of them. I am a stepmother to two older daughters one who is going to college. I enjoy shopping, baking, cooking, cleaning, organizing, running, clowning, making soap, playing piano and lately painting with ASCP paint! I am learning to enjoy the little things in life and make the most of it...clinging to my Savior through the tears that life brings and enjoying his GRACE He gives us every day! Thanks for stopping by!

Friday, October 28, 2011

Give Thanks?

This is day 6 of sitting on the "shelf".  Today I was feeling a bit sorry for myself.  Yes, its true...I was.  I can't run for at least a couple of weeks which means that I will miss a lot of 5K's right now.  I also was going to be able to clown this weekend for two church which I was totally excited about and now I can't do and the hardest part is that I have to rely on my children and family to do things for me and for my house...and I'm a little OCD about the cleanliness of my house....which in turn you will hear a little bit of weeping as I look around at my house....BUT....

in being on the "shelf" I have been able to do some things that I wouldn't normally be doing.....such as I finally had a chance to check my email which is ridiculous but I found these:

 Two friends had taken these pictures of my T as he went horseback riding with the Scouts and another friend took these pics with his totally cool camera during one of his games...and I've been so busy that today was the first time I had actually taken the time to even SEE them.

I'm sure you find it ridiculous that I'm to busy to check my email...but it is true.....I have been too busy to even check my email....so today...I took time to read a little longer to my E.....blog a little...spend a little time on Pinterest.....color with my E....and help her play with her magnetic puzzle dolls.  I also got to listen to my children say things like "Wow! Mom sure does do a lot that it takes the five of us to do her job."

I don't like asking for help...and its hard for me to have friends taking my kids here and there....and I have even had two friends bring us dinner...which of course makes me feel guilty....they after all have busy lives.  I also feel bad for my hubby who works close to 60 hrs a week and now comes home and does laundry and so forth and even my four year old has had to do a lot...and the guilt I feel when I hear her crying for me when she's being put to bed...oh the guilt a Mommy feels. 

However, I don't have to have surgery like I thought I might and I also have a quicker recovery than I thought I would originally....just right now....I'm feeling rather like I'm on the "shelf".  Instead I need to be "still" and take time to be in the "quiet" but very soon I will be back in the running and hopefully will remember what its like to be quiet and listen....and to be thankful for all things...all the time...big or little.

This is the pillow that sits on my couch in our family room....it is a constant reminder to me of what all I have to be grateful for....even if it means....sitting on the "shelf" for a little bit...

May His name be praised!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

My First 5K

Since July I have been running.  A lady in our church who runs marathons and just an unbelievably talented woman decided to start a Bible Study called "Run For God".  It is a twelve week program that starts you off slow into running and applies the hardships of running into our daily walk with Jesus and all of the battles that we have both physically and spiritually.

I worked very hard just like everyone else who did this study.  I was able to make new friendships and really learn how to support my friends.  I also was able to have my son run with me and let him find out that he really does have a gift in running....and hopefully he will continue it.  Plus four out of the six people that live in our house have decided that they will start running with me also.

Here are some pictures of us before the run:

My son T and I before the race...he did AWESOME!

My niece and I ...what an encourager she was!
 My best time running 3 miles was 31 minutes and Race Day I wanted to come in in 30 minutes or less...I had no goals of winning a medal just wanted to celebrate with my friends on accomplishing a goal that I had never been able to do before.  NO matter how long it took us to finish...we did it and that's all that mattered.

After mile 1 I knew I was in trouble...my knee started giving out...but my anger kept me going....I had worked so hard...to not finish simply was NOT an option.  I kept running until mile 2 then walked/ran to mile 3....and THEN when you see all your friends and everyone clapping for you??? WELL....my leg and my knee were SCREAMING and by the end so was I....my son captured this pic of me coming in...what you don't see is the sheer WILL getting me across the finish line.

My niece got me across the finish line...I wanted to just lay on her on my way in.
My husband was thankfully close by and knew I was in trouble when he didn't see me come in with my friends that I had run with....I basically collapsed into his arms and he got me sitting down...the rest was sheer pain and agony in which two of my friends had to carry me to a chair and my husband had to carry me to the car and into the chiropracter's office....Then it was off to ER where I got two BIG shots and a knee stabilizer and crutches...tomorrow back to the chiropracter....and long story short I'm out of running for a bit.

I'm rather discouraged because I can't even do the smallest of things right now around the house...worried about how all that is to get done....and I have two children to homeschool.  So, discouragement is settling in a bit...I'm so annoyed at why after doing what I needed to do I had an injury and ended up in the ER with great big shots that hurt like mad and then I ruined my son's camping trip that he was to have with Scouts and was going to be able to camp out with his Dad.  Instead, I'm on the couch with ice and pain medicines and even doing the smallest things are difficult...all I want to do is run...nothing big...its my little piece of something that I like to do for "just me" and now......I can't do anything...not even clean....which is my other favorite thing to do...and the worst thing is....I have to ASK for help for all things!

My dear boy though had an awesome race....he finished first in his age group and his time was 26.27 minutes...so I was super proud!

1st, 2nd, and 3rd

So I'm off of running for a little bit but I'll be BACK! I hope very soon because this is way old! So, I guess I should be applying the principles learned about "running the race" spiritually should be applied here? Except this time....the lessons seem harder....much HARDER!

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Honestly Speaking

"Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight Oh Lord, my Strength and my Redeemer."...these words were put to music and planted on my heart at a very early age....the lessons....my mouth ALWAYS seems to get me into trouble.

When I look at the "ugliness" of what comes out of my mouth I'm amazed and saddened...I almost want to run into hiding.  This is when Satan can really wrap us up and shut us down...which is what he really wants to have happen.  This is when it is important to embrace "grace" and really understand what that word means....Even though I fail and mess up....His grace is enough....I can move on....I can keep going...restoration can come....but I first must confess it, surround myself with positive and continue on.  Words said cannot be taken back....damage done...However, the sun will shine again...relationships can be restored....

As women we must guard our tongue...I feel that this is the absolute hardest thing for women to do.  It's so easy to turn a "prayer request" into a gossip session when our intent in the first place was really just to "share" the burden of someone...and instead....quite innocently you've said more than you meant to say.......so.....at the ripe age of 30 something I'm learning to "zip it"  I'm learning to "be quiet".

It has been good for me in many ways...I'm concentrating on being a better wife, on my children in school and their behavior, cooking, soap making, learning to knit, taking myself off of facebook as much as possible (not always easy) and my biggest thing has been running.  I'm running in a 5K this Saturday and I'm very excited about it.  Running with other women and encouraging one another has been a huge life change that I plan on continuing.  For me....being busy keeps my tongue from being "busy".  Being in the word and concentrating on Bible verses....I even have them on my chalkboard wall in my kitchen so that they are a CONSTANT reminder to me.  My tongue....there are times I wish it could just be "cut off".

I as a woman have the potential to build up my children's confidence or cut them down on a daily basis.  I have the potential to encourage my friends and make them smile or cut them down and damage their hearts which can lead to them not wanting to be friends with me or any of the ladies of the "church".  The damage that can be done....is quite frankly....frightening.

I have started back to "clowning".  For me it is an outlet that puts me out of my "comfort zone" and quite frankly people at times can be quite negative towards that ministry.  So much so that I have felt that it is NOT important and that I should NOT do it.  I have turned down many opportunities simply because I didn't "FEEL" that I should be doing it.

I can honestly say that taking up running has changed my perspective on many things.  It has provided fellowship when I need it most, it has provided encouragement that I know they had no idea that I needed and it has provided an outlet...sometimes we need to do something that lets out that "negative energy" so to speak...and running does that for me....gets the "grr" out of me!  It has also allowed me to look at my spiritual life in a way that I never really did before....it has allowed me to see the "ugly" part of my spirit that I really didn't want to look at.  It's so much easier to point at others and say "this is their fault....I'm this way because of them!" It is much harder to point the finger to myself and say that "I AM THE PROBLEM!"  Only then can healing come and only then can spiritual growth be obtained.

For me....I have several 5K's lined up to keep my "physical" body conditioning up and surrounding myself with those that are "spiritually stronger" than myself to encourage me both physically and spiritually.  I feel that that is of utmost importance in the challenges of the daily "grind".  I wear many hats....I homeschool two, I'm a stepmother to two, I'm a business owner, I'm in charge of all household duties (besides the lawn) and I am involved in various ministries of the church...so my plate is full....but without constant guarding of the tongue....it all falls apart.

The verse right now on my wall:
Ps. 34:13 Keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking lies.

May His name be praised!

Sunday, October 16, 2011

The 6th Annual Fall Segrist Party

This is our sixth year of having our Fall Party.  I enjoyed this time of year very much as a child.  Trick or treating where we had big paper grocery sacks going from house to house where they would only give ONE piece of candy and we would walk forever but  had sacks half full of candy and so excited! I enjoyed carmel apples and wonderful hay rides....decorating pumpkins....sigh....lovely fun! So, this is a way that we try very hard to keep this tradition alive with our family and friends.

First I had three homemade soups that I made...Broccoli and cheese, chicken rice and Colorado White Chili....very yummy and very easy.  I tried to keep drinks outside and desserts on the inside so that parents could keep eyes out for what their kiddos were consuming.....I try to make all my parties "help yourself" as much as possible.

I spray painted the small pillars black...we will be using at our store for a "Paris" event next month also and I spray painted some our pumpkins...not sure how I feel about those yet.

Then it IS a costume party....here is my family....First we have Raggedy Ann and Andy
Our own Dr. House

Then we have Cat in the Hat who looks very fat in this getup I must say!

My dear friend MADE her daughters costume and put flowers in her hair! Clearly I was outdone!
Then of course Rapunzel....so cute!

Then we had a Jedi

He's so handsome and getting way to old!

Then we had apple dunk, sack race and balloon toss and craft time.  The weather was divine and the party was a blast!

 Weekend Bloggy Reading

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Broccoli Cheese Soup

Cooking for the fall party is in full swing.....I'm a bit behind this year...but hopefully everything will turn out o.k.

First on the menu list is our Broccoli Cheese Soup! This is always a favorite! So yummy with warm bread....YUMMO!

1 cup carrot, finely chopped
1/4 cup celery, finely chopped---I never measure any of the veggies just "guesstimate"
1/4 co onion, finely chopped
1/4 cup green pepper, finely chopped
1/2 cup fresh broccoli, cut in small pieces
1 3/4 cups chicken broth
2 cups milk
1/4 cup flour
1/2 tsp paprika
1/2 tsp salt
4 oz Velveeta cheese
1 cup shredded cheddar cheese
1/2 cup shredded provolone cheese

I triple this recipe.  In stockpot, heat first 6 ingredients to boiling; reduce heat and simmer for 15 minutes or until vegetables are tender.  Combine milk, flour, paprika, and salt in a bowl.  Add to broth mixture.  Cook until thick and bubbly.  Add cheese and stir until melted.  Then I freeze in ziploc bags and lay flat in freezer so then I can stack them easier. 

Here I am again

Well last night I couldn't fall asleep until 3am...woke up after 8am....I hate that when that happens.  Now tonight I thought that since I only had five hours of sleep that I would sleep better tonight...but NOPE! Good news is....no jury duty! That is a MAJOR Party dance!

There is a lot going on right now...some good...some not so good.  Some of it...is my fault....some of it isn't...and I just can't bear it when things aren't....good...perhaps that's why I can't sleep.

We are trying to catch up on school this week and getting back into the routine....I find myself doubting again....I find myself my biggest enemy....if I would get out of the way....what changes would come?  If I would let go...and let things just land where they may and go with the flow...what freedom would occur?  Does it matter that my house is perfect always and that the beds look like Pottery Barn catalogs?  Today as I stepped over huge coloring pages in my entryway and school books all over the dining room table...and dishes in the sink...I kinda smiled to myself....that has to be healthy that I let that go isn't it?  Don't fret...I picked it up when we were done with school for the day. 

I have a fall party coming up this weeknd....visions of painting pumpkins and gourds and homemade soups etc are keeping me up....but you know what....I just might go to Sam's and get their yummy cupcakes with cute little pumpkins on them....instead of having fifteen million drink options I might just have three....see...there I go...making all kinds of changes....

So, pray for us as I learn to let go....and here's a peek at last years Fall Party!