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Saint Joseph, MO, United States
I'm a stay at home Mom of two children and I have the unique privilege of being able to homeschool both of them. I am a stepmother to two older daughters one who is going to college. I enjoy shopping, baking, cooking, cleaning, organizing, running, clowning, making soap, playing piano and lately painting with ASCP paint! I am learning to enjoy the little things in life and make the most of it...clinging to my Savior through the tears that life brings and enjoying his GRACE He gives us every day! Thanks for stopping by!

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Hope for Christmas

There are many blogs to read.  There are many people that have a lot of things to say...they have beautiful homes, wonderful crafts, fabulous baking and cooking and organizing ideas....and there is so much talent that sometimes t can be overwhelming.

I started this blog about three years ago because I felt that I had some unique experiences that few others had.  For awhile I wrote about them even though it made some uncomfortable but the feedback I received spurred me on...so today...as my heart breaks....I write on.

When I became a parent for the first time I was overwhelmed, overjoyed...and amazed that I and m husband made such a perfect little human being....parent hood was nothing that I thought it would be and everything I never imagined....I am blessed to be a Mom...beyond words....truly blessed.

In my parenting I have learned that all of our children are different and between my husband and myself we have four children....they all have completely different personalities and talents, strengths and weaknesses and the balance of knowing how to deal with them makes me feel at times that I'm orchestrating several freight trains at once just waiting for them all to crash....and right now we have one that is off the tracks....and it breaks our hearts....and our family is broken....and we sit in silence...because it's easier to keep the pain to ourselves than announce it to the world.  To say that you have a problem in your family means that you set yourself up to be judged...we don't really feel like being judged right now.   It mans that people that have never been through the pain you are going through like to give unwanted advice...it means that people pull their kids from your kids that haven't gone off the tracks because they might spread that"off track gene" to their kid and well we just can't have that.  It means that we are not perfect...it means we have a front row seat to either a "God sized" miracle or a crushing blow....it means you find out who your real friends are.  It means you learn how to pray like never before.  It means your way harder on your other kids still riding the rails...it means you cry a lot, it means you don't allow yourself to look at pictures, or sit still long enough.  It means you freeze time and scrutinize every decision you ever made or said to that child....it means you learn to let go...to let God in....to have Him hold you...because you can't sleep, can't feel, can't get through the day unless you give to Him all day L ONG  say...I give you my children...the ones that run to you and the ones that run from you....and you never look at those parents that children ran from them the same way again....you never say " it can't happen in our family." Because it can....we are all capable of running....

Appreciate your prayers as we await how this story unfolds....

Wednesday, December 11, 2013


My son just turned 14 and wanted a Facebook. I told him no....I wish someone would have told I me no. Lately I get on just to check deals that are going on and rarely post anything unless it's a picture from Instagram.  I would love to shut down the account but that's how I plan things for the college kids and parties, and advertise for my soap business, and my real business.

I used to post things when I was angry, or felt self righteous, I would post my childrens accomplishments and probably still do.  Then I just kind of got tired of it all and started sharing articles that meant a lot to me...then people started sharing their opinions of how they felt about those articles...and they were not always positive...and then I just got annoyed and stayed annoyed.  Then people would unfriend me and I would unfriend them...or they would post pics of their kids birthday party that they didn't invite my kid too...or boast about how giving and wonderful their child was...and I realized....Facebook has just become another seventh grade battlefield...where some of us never grow up...and mean girls rule.

I must confess sometimes I act like a mean girl...and that's why unless it's humorous I rarely post anymore...usually my posts are something like this:  we finally got the driveway clear of any snow and then to mock us it snowed again:).

It also creates this false sense of knowing someone.  I may post pictures of my glorious gorgeous house which makes you all feel that I'm super wonderful....but really I'm not...I may be lonely, sad, depressed but boy can I fake it by posting pics of just the positive....and that's what Facebook does...creates a false sense of knowing one another.

Facebook has its good points to. I get to see what is happening in my relatives lives that live far away,  my friends that are far away and keeps me up to date on happenings at church etc....but  honestly...what would happen if I hit the delete button? Wouldn't people be able to email me, text me,
 Instagram me, twitter me....aren't I already so connected anyway? What makes me feel that I just can't hit it???

I sometimes feel that I'm spying on people and what a waste of time it is...why do we feel this urgency for it??? I'm still waiting for the answer...still trying to get the courage to hit delete.

Monday, December 2, 2013

Christmas decorating

I have been so very busy that o have not been able to post anything for such a long time.

I started off with around 35 boxes of Christmas decorations ( ridiculous i realize) I got rid of ten boxes after our move and just got rid of five more! The house we lived in before had a huge front porch and large white pillars inside the home. It usually took me a week to decorate it. I was grumpy and my children hated helping me carry all those boxes! This year if I didn't love it I got rid of it and then I revamped some things.....today I let the kids have a day off while we finish decorating and it's actually going to be warm enough to spray paint some things! This is how the house is looking so far!

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Saturday, October 26, 2013

The Season of Giving

As we enter this season of holidays and celebrating the goodness of what God has done for us...many of us extend that to others that are less fortunate then ourselves.  I know that in our own family we use this as a teaching tool to show our children how they need to be grateful for the huge abundance that we have here in America.

Our family does things a little differently, we bless in secret...we have our reasons for doing so...but that is what we do.  We feel quite strongly in this and enjoy blessing and standing from the sidelines watching the family enjoy and having no idea who gave the blessing.  We also enjoy doing it because I personally feel that when we give its a private affair...if you receive the praise of man I don't believe that God is pleased with your giving...however...that is my own personal feelings...but the other reason is because I have been on the side of receiving...and here are my lessons that are learned in that process.

My very first Christmas as a single mother to one little boy and my husband was buried only four months prior.  The last thing on earth that I felt like doing was celebrating Christmas.  I personally found all the joy and love...well frankly it made me a bit sick....but I had a little boy...and he needed to enjoy Christmas.  So, the tree went up and looking at lights, and visiting Santa and all that happened so my little Trey could have some joy...then I had people start bringing me things....at first I found it confusing??? I lived in a nice apartment was able to provide for my son...I really didn't feel "needy" but they came...and I found it really really really hard to accept the gifts.  I found it rather embarrassing...I guess you could say I was proud...and Yes I'm aware that that is wrong.  Receiving is difficult for some...we live in a nation of "give me give me" and I'm not talking about those people.  I'm not talking about the people that take what they can from us as taxpayers and their kids walk around with the latest and greatest technology and they complain because they don't live in a fabulous house etc....I'm talking about those that work and try to find work and can't...I'm talking about the ones who give their kids whatever they can and its still not enough...I'm talking about the ones who genuinely are suffering...its hard to sit down and receive the gifts that others bring.

Just remember this season when your giving to give with quiet, to give without show, to give with complete love..and to remember that it is so fun to give...but for some it is very hard to receive. 

Friday, October 25, 2013

Soapy Week and One Thousand Gifts

This week I have been able to really enjoy my true passions...which is soap making! It is so relaxing to make these products I simply can't explain it! Since we started the process of moving back in May the last time I made soap was probably in March??? Not exactly sure...but I was completely out...and def needed to make some for gifts this year and for soap baskets at our store...plus some of my best customers were asking:) That's always nice!

I tried a new one making it with real avocado and it smells soooo great! I also made my best seller coffee soap and another one with lemongrass and sage with blue swirl.  Right now I'm using my Hawaii soap and loving how luxurious it is!

I also can't wait to start the study at our church with our college girls One Thousand Gifts!

Today I start the process of cleaning and organizing and putting projects together for our basement, garage and the painting of the laundry room!!! Next week more soap!

Have a GREAT weekend!

Bottom layer of coffee soap

Avocado soap!

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Fall Party

Its that time of year again! Oh my goodness how this year is FLYING by! I am still stuck in August!

This year I did not spend a lot...trying to be frugal now that we are in our new house...we are wanting to pay it off as quickly as possible! Since we were being frugal I think the party turned out to be one of the best! After the party my hubby and I started counting all the people and I had around 35!

For the food:
1. Homemade bread, my other breadmaker killed the last loaf:( thankfully a friend brought some bread:) I love friends:)
2.  Homemade soups: there was none left! I made broccoli cheese soup, chili (using my dried tomatoes and homemade sauce) and my chicken rice soup of which they were scraping the bottom of the bowl:)
3.  Homemade pumpkin muffins, banana bread with chocolate chips and apple crisp....I did buy cupcakes at sam's because...well I was tired:(

Here are some pics!  The weather was a little chilly but oh how I loved the fact that the cornfield had not been harvested yet! Gave the best backdrop for pictures!!!!!

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Hawaii Inspiration

I adore making soap.  It calms me...when I'm out in nature now I think of how the combinations will go in soap...God is a wonderful artist and you can see that in His creation!

Without further delay here is my inspiration behind my soap! sc

Monday, October 14, 2013

Apples and Jelly and Pumpkin Patches

I have been so busy with this house! Painting and purging! This past weekend I had a garage sale and now it sits at the curb waiting to be picked up by a local charity.  It seems that everyone I know is purging or moving??? CRAZY!

I will be taking pics today of the completed rooms in our house...the rest will have to wait until this winter when I have more time to paint and purge even more!  We are settling in well...but life is crazy busy! So busy in fact that today I have taken a break from all activities to catch up on projects and allow us to breathe a little! 

Here are some pics that we took at the orchard and the Pumpkin Patch!  I also learned that I have been so wasteful! I learned that I should take my apple peels and cores to make apple jelly! Did you know that????

All I needed to do was take the apple peels and cores and place in large pot, cover the apples with water and put on low allowing them to cook down.  Then I just took my immersion blender and blended it up, put in a strainer and then followed the directions on my sure jell box.  I ended up with four jars of apple jelly goodness from practically NOTHING!